Guerrila warfare and cake mix

Ahah! It has been awhile hasn't it? But in the spirit in which this blog was started (as an excuse to avoid schoolwork) I have returned!
Perhaps its the white chocolate mocha (with a dash of peppermint), maybe it's all the new cute clothes that come with the season, or perhaps it is the upkeeping of my strata (much to the detriment of my wallet) but I seem to be in a frantic, yet happy mood.
I should be writing a paper, dealing with my phone issues (such as getting it fixed so people can contact me once again) and generally be getting my life together, but you know what? In the timeless words of my 6 year old brother...
I don't wanna
So there, instead I am going to waste this precious time posting things that caught my eye! Now if any of you are looking to be entertained or updated on the life of Caitlin, click back to your facebook or whatever now. In fact, do that anyway, this is simply for me and posterity.

"Love is hell!'
"Oh? Well Pergatory isn't a picnic either, at least your committed!"
"oh he's committed all right did you kno-"
"Discarding that notion, I must be in heavan then? Hmm, thats little consolation."
"Ted? What do you think?"
"Who me?"
"See any other Ted's around?"
"Funny... I think I am glad I am an athiest!"

All my life I have lived in a shadow of a mountain. I have called him father and he in turn endeared me as son. As a child my siblings and I would rumble and tug, leap and crawl upon him, causing him to excalim "Am I a man or a mountain!" to which our delighted voices would reply "A mountain!", how young, how astute, how precocious were we.

Take a bow,
nod your head,
just one more moment
and they'll be dead

the fleurescent wash,

for eyes ascending

safety in light

forever depending

the darkeness brings forth

the moths, the desperate

for that fire, that knowledge

willingly abdicate.

Fly forward,

wings like a nervous hand

fluttering, alighting

without a safe place to land

a transaction in darkness, for we will only fly to the flame, and up in smoke!

up up up she goes, up she goes up...

are you pensive? are you present? alive? a comfort?

I ask again are you a comfort?

truly you have forgotten your powdery wings, and your precarious posistion

how pregnant with fear and hope in equal measure

have you left them shattered or simply unfinished,

and why do you still persue that rainbow? you know it is intangible, a translucent thing, without even enough reality to slide upon your fingers

don't falsely endear me, when you cannot claim to know me

except within the biblical sense.

I tried counting sheep to help me sleep,

but I only knew enough people to stave off the night

shall you know my name, but only a name?

like pretty or nice, or cruel and human

Surely any other flower?

so sweet

the chemical comfort,

Where thy loyalties lie

A little piece of wisdom for everyone out in the world.

A Saturday is nothing without tea and toast.

So I am just updating, I have a job at Cowboy coffee (think Starbucks then up the quality about 20 times, that's right, we are barista's, coffee bean specialists and ambassadors to the finer of Kamloop's citizens. We serve the Lawyers and power suit business people of lovely downtown. I am working full time and loving it.

Just now I got back from strolling the downtown streets with Kip (my dog) Adrian (friend) and Reba (The pure-bred golden retriever show dog... Kippy is still the best dog in the world) It was fun, grabbed some lattes from work and sauntered the streets in the rain. Funniest moment is when a guy stopped to talk to us about Kippy (Haha she gets more attention then us!) and says "Hi grandma" to Adrian. She had her hood up and he thought I was out for a walk with my grandmother! Oh my, by far the best nickname story. This one is gonna stick!

Tonight I am off to a BBQ with some friends then a barnyard dance with Megan (a friend from work) and some others. Should be a good time, sobriety not welcome!

So I have been busy, I am currently "seeing" a guy named Pieter who I met while working the shutdown at the pulp mill. Oh wow is he gorgeous! Tall blond and built like a Calvin Klein underwear model (I know cause we went to the beach the other day!). He is Icelandic and the funniest thing is he has an Uncle Thor (I know I cant get enough of this!) who teaches Jenny's class. I think I will just leave out the fact that Jenny and all her friends think that Thor is a total creep. I suppose Jenny will have to miss family get-togethers. It isn't serious at all (don't worry guys, I am not going to fall in love here despite thoughts to the contrary) but as much as I joke I only go out with him cause he is a great looking accessory he actually is a really great guy. He is very quite though, not a big partier, prefers to just watch a movie or go to a pub for drinks, definitely a different pace then I am used to but I don't mind.

So Jen just got back from a week in Van, mum is up for the weekend and dad is here so we are back to a nearly full house! Maeve is back in a month, Andrew and Dan were supposed to come up this weekend but they decided not to (Andrew couldn't get off work). But come Monday the house is empty again, Mom is back in Van for the continuation of her bar course, I drive Dad to the airport so he can jet off to Prince George for the week and Jen... oh well she is around but I work 9-5 all next week and have some things to do so I don't know how much we will be together. I think I am going to set aside a few evenings for just her and I. Sushi and movies or something like that.

Well I have to go get ready for the BBQ and by that I mean I have to go pick up a case of Molson, If I am meeting a bunch of new people I better be able to offer them some beer, the automatic friend maker!

That is all for now, sorry it has taken me so long to get an update out to you all! Drop me a line! Jordan I will send you my addy, I am definitely looking forward to some CD's! Miss you Jackomite! Kayla! Be good darlin, it's breakin my heart to be away from you (haha heartbreaker!) will be up to see everyone sometime soon!

Oh, and for me, how about you all blast some ridiculous song (like take it off by the donnas) and dance around the kitchen singin at the top of your lungs, the amount that I do this nowadays it is more then possible you are dancing and singing with me!

Song: Redemption by Gackt

Saying: Always remember, the future comes one day at a time

~Love from The Girl

the dangers of society, pt. 1

So this is a conversation I just had, struck a chord with me with how true to society it is so I put it her for posterity. (posterity... post-erity... allright, just believe me when I tell you that pun was unintentional but when I saw it I couldn't help but point it out.)

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
hey

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
hi!

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
how are yah?

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
great grand you caught me in a really good mood

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
im glad to hear it

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
lol, how are yah?

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
im pretty good

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
only pretty good?

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
well im tired and a bit sore

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
buit other then that everything is awesome

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
tired and sore... climb everest? battle personal demons? save a kitten from a blazing inferno? what happened?

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
well i was in the middle of saving the world from a crisis when i realized that i had to work so i worked for five hours

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
and then saved us from that evil genius who was trying global takover by controlling the weather patterns? I am so proud to know you!

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
well i do my best to save humanity

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
haha, which is all we can truly ask for, but you know the human race, so fickle, our heroes need to let us down but once for us to turn our backs on them

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
it's so true

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
i just don't understand it

Caitlin~*~ metropolis has nothing on this says:
its tough to be a superman

"This is where we fight! This is where they die!!" says:
it really is

~Well that was it, think on it, and not that passing "hmm, you are right 'the girl', thats interesting" really think about it!

Oh and I will have an update later, I am in a really good cause something I was terrified about turned out for nothing (thank the powers that be). I wont even tell you guys it was that ridiculous. But I do indeed have stories that I will try to include in here when I want to spare the time.

Song: 11:11 PM by The All American Rejects

Saying: If you obey all the rules, You will miss all the fun (Katherine Hepburn)

Turning over that damn leaf only to find it is still just a leaf.

Just updating quick! Start work tomorrow, which, although I am gonna miss just lounging on the deck, is still a good thing seeing as I spent my last 500 on a new summer wardrobe. It consists of ridiculously expensive Capri's and tops, oh and a white suit! They are all so pretty, sigh....

So working at the pulp mill! Yes, I have a hard hat, and earplugs, and a radio, and safety glasses, and all sorts of nifty safety stuff I have to wear. It is rockin. I will make sure to document it for all of you at home.

I love a mall here, Aberdeen. So great! The pool at the university is amazing, I have found myself a nice pub called Duffy's, and went for a great BBQ the other day and met some interesting people.

all in all life is alright. I saved a baby bird yesterday, tried to set it free only to find right back in need of rescuing, took it in, fed it, let it sleep in a shoebox and set it free again this morning, and... It came back by afternoon. I have given this one more go and hope that it doesn't come back, because frankly, as much as I would love too, I just have no time for baby bird. I am working a week straight starting tomorrow and each day will be a 12 hour shifts. There is no way I can work that and still take care of chirpy! Hope to lord I never have to deal with unwanted pregnancy cause dealing with baby bird is hard enough.

Well enough of that random rant. I will end this post the same as the previous one and I am sure many to follow. I miss you all and hope to see you soon!

Song: Never again by Kelly Clarkson

Saying: That which burns brightest burns out first.

No through road

So I am in Kamloops (yeahhhhh)

So far so good, I have spent my last few days of idleness wandering the streets, figuring out how to get downtown, seeing my new house, deciding various things and checking out the new digs. The house is kinda cool, not our house, but we can change that.

I also have applied at Thompson River University, or TRU for short. It feels like Highschool it is so small, and get this, they have an acting school and culinary school on the oh-so-small campus. Oh my, I am a snob. A Universtiy Snob. I honestly feel to good for this school, and am pretty much gaurenteed admission even with my not so steller GPA. I cannot really specialize without going somewhere else, but it seems like there isn't alot that can really be done here, you must go somewhere else.

I am not positive even yet if I will stay here. I know for the summer, but following I might decide to return to saskatoon and only take 3 courses a semester. Lighter course load means more time to work and earn money, as well as more time to decide on a futere plan of action. Then again, it also means if I want to go into law then I have 2 more years ahead of myself. Life is full of hard decisions

there is also the case of where will I live, there are many places available, Kat is offering me a room, dan said sure, so did tyson and Jenna, but I also might move in with jackie if that goes through. Then there are all my friends who say they want to move out, but I am not holding my breath.

Well I have my first day of training at the mill on the 9th, then a week later start working. 2 grand in 2 weeks!! pretty nice!!!! Then I am working waitressing and at sportchek here. my life this summer will be work work work. To keep options open one must first have the money available to make any decisions they want.

Enough of the now, and the future, what of the past?!

Friday was a top night everyone! Top Night!
unfortunately it was one of those top nights where I was extremely smashed and don't remember everything, so the highlights

-Cant get in! Then jackie gets me VIP entrance
-being flipped before I knew what was happening.
-drinking in the back with Jackie
-lewd suggestions for one of my guy friends who just so happens to be taken! B! Not many people will know you and I have never met your girlfriend, but I do know she exists!
-bonfire
-passing out, twice...
-getting to dereks god knows how... how did we end up with you guys anyways?
-the most politically incorrect jokes ever!
-great fun!
-damn bruises

then there was the ride to kamloops, I saw so much wildlife! It was ridiculous! my mum and I snuck into a hottub after hours, tried out the merrils and listened to a great story. It was a pretty good trip!

Now in the city I went for great sushi already.

What more could a girl want?

Well I miss you all, Jamie I so badly want one of our work talks!!! I only just realized I confide almost everything in you, how did that happen? I guess its cause your one of my only friends who is truly good :P

Kayly! Of course I will let you get me drunk when I get home!

Jordon, Kayla.. hahahaha all I can say, and kayla, You are a much better person then I, rather then tend to his drunk ass I would have just left him on a curb!

Song: 32 flavours by Alana Davis
Saying: I am a poster girl with no poster

Thats all! tata for now!

Love the Girl

displacement

With my impending move nearing by the second, I have come to realize that I am, inso facto, homeless.

I have had "houses", but there never was, nor ever will be a place, a concrete location, that is "Home".

It really isn't nearly as depressing as it seems.

This realization came upon me last night. With all my worldly possessions having being stripped from my latest house, I found myself having to lay my head upon one of the polyester encased pillows which are so commonly found within hotels, like the Sheraton where I stayed last night. After a scrumptious supper at the fabulous Second avenue grill, I found myself discussing evening plans with my brother, and asked him if he would be coming home to sleep that night. It was then that I realized I had just referred to the Sheraton as home. It was not the last time I did it that night either.

Is home simply for me where I lay my head? Where I keep some necessities (and some luxuries) at hand, and am comfortable? After travelling the world I am comfortable in almost any setting. Now I am in a condo right on the river beside the Broadway bridge. Here I will sleep until I leave Saturday and already have I slipped into the mistake of calling it Home. In Europe I had two semi-permanent locations, both to which I referred to as home, and whilst in Paris I even found Mandolin's comfy apartment receiving said title. I am a nomad my friend. My mom comments on how i move into every space as soon as I enter (the truck normally) but move out just as quickly. I am not "living" in my living room... simply existing as best I know how.

I have memories linked to locations sure. I have had some fantastic houses, shared times in them with fantastic people, and am grateful for all of these moments. I just am a little jealous is all.

Well, Home is where you are. Remember that everyone. I'm home, today tomorrow... always, now that is comforting.

Saying: I am beyond your peripheral vision, so you might want to turn your head.
Song: Tell Me by Dropping Daylight

Finals, moving and bunnies

So it was recently easter!

Huzzuh! Chocolate! (au chocolat?) easter bunnies and ridiculous e-mails involving pictures of baby chickens wearing bunny ears..., chicks have really taken this playboy bunny thing too far. Hun, not even on halloween, it's slutty whenever you do it, so if thats what you are going for. If it's any deterant, ever time I see a girl wearing Bunnt ears I cannot help but think of the old fat woman who came into work a few weeks ago wearing a purple pair... she wishes she had the ability to "slut it up" as it were.

So Easter was great except for the fact I basically have strep throat, or something like that, and was in bed for 3 out of

4 days of the long weekend (missing work thurs through to sat)

Finals!! My first one is biology (ugh) tomorrow at 7 pm... at leastr the time is great, even if the date sucks. after that not a single one until 2 on the 24th and my final final (more fun to say then you think!) on the 27th.

Following my final final (ok, seriously, just say it! If your in school you understand that happy feeling that accompanies!) I am moving! Huzzuh! And AHHH!

Soooo terrified! It is the summer and I won't know anyone! I will be exploring a new city, looking for new shopping venues, dog walking paths, work, and friends.

Oh! And a place where I can get a decent cup of soup. And it has to be a cup, otherwise the place just isnt quirky enough for me.

Good news is I am only 3 hours away from van city so I expect to go there a fair bit to visit family and friends, and my best friend since like grade 2, Yvonne, is having her baby in July (congrats hun!) so I get to be there for that!!

I will miss you all so much!!! It is nearing so quickly! Remember, april 27th, we are partying like it was 1999... if any of us had been old enough to party like we do now then... Im not feeling the musical chairs.

Location ideas anyone? Most people at work seem to suggest The Hose, which works for me, or The Skuz (it is a friday).

In other news, my brother is here on the 19th! For my mums graduation... OMG SHE IS GRADUATING!!!!!! This has been a defining issue for my entire Saskatoon life, mum in school. Now she is done as is my time in saskatoon, fitting no?

Thats all for now!

Luv The Girl (you all know which one)

Song: New Shoes by Paolo Nutini

Saying: It's not over till the fat lady sings

As For the final picture, I decided to post a picture of all the places where I have lived. There are quite a few
Vancouver, my first home

Second hometown for less than a year, Prince George.

Gibsons B.C., Some of my fondest memories and friends are here

Port Alice, 7 years of fun, while I was still too young to realize I was in the middle of nowhere

Wurzberg! Near Linz, home of my first nanny gig... don't ask

Salzberg, right by Kuhl, home of one of the coolest famalies I know and love

Saskatoon... Home of the coolest people I know, I'm gonna miss you guys!