Lust

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Do you all remember the girl who didn't believe in love, romance, and fate? Or that great line "sure it may exist, just not for me"?

moment of silence for her passing.

I know, I know, a little ridiculous that the oh so cynical me would trade in her spots for some dreamy thoughts, but I have. The most depressing thing is this whole change came along with the most recent greys anatomy, where grey died. Going to tell it like it is... I absolutely teared a little in the last scene where Izzie and Danny pass in the hall... Oh my god, I have become a sap.

I suppose the realization is also in part from the fact that I don't like sleeping alone, so with missing Jaime and sleeping with Tyson (oh that was bad news) I am just melancholy.

In any case I now know that I want love, regardless of wether it is out there or not. Guess I am ready for the relationship game... oh, but am I ever terrified.

god love me, help me and hold me, until I am ready to allow someone else to